well, in order that my mum's been in hospital from a lashing of chemo side effects, Karma is so far up one's backside, fair dinkum! seriously, am I supposed to be a messenger girl for everyone???, I didn't know my brother Craig and kids were coming down this weekend, and so now I'm being blamed again, for not telling him that mum's in hospital?, so am I the only one in the family? geewizz, Karen could've told Craig, or even Mark or even Wayne, why should I have to tell Craig, when he treats me like trash, and then expects me to message him about mum-I think NOT!! seriously!!! awww, boohoo Craig!!! I looked up to him as a cool brother, a mentor, a protector, now I look up at him as an physcological abuser, because he's been lied to by Karen, now he doesn't believe me anymore, ok, Craig, whatever, believe a liar, but not believe who tells the truth, your problem then! I don't seriously care anymore! I'm gonna live my life the way I want to, and if ya don't like that, you can go stick it Craig!
Here's a true quote:
Learn from yesterday
Live for today
Hope for tomorrow
Well enough said! Cheers for now!
MPearl! :)
Saturday, December 01, 2012
I feel sorry for my mum!
Well, the title says so, here's an example,
my mum's back in hospital, she had 2 falls, 1 fall , she was under my care, at her home, which surprisingly this was not my fault, this was my mum's fault really, she has a habit sleeping right on the edge of her bed, and so mum had a nap, whilst waiting for the RDNS nurse to come and take her bloods before her chemo-it's procedure, so when I eard a knock at the door, I came running to the door and went into mum's room, to wake her up, then I opened the dorr, and heard a loud thump, I went into check and mum had fallen out of bed and hit her head on the side drawers, so I quickly opened the front door to let the nurse in to help my mum up off the floor and onto the bed, so we both did that, sat her on the bed whilst the RDNS takes her blood, then whilst she's doing that, I immediately get some ice and a teatowel, wrap the ice in it, and put it directly onto her left side face/head, so the RDNS nurse left with mum's blood and that was that, so I got mum off the bed and walkied her slowly to the living room, on her couch, and applied the ice pack, stayed with her for an hour, then rang my (brat) sister at work, told her what happened, then I waited for my sister to come after work, that was 5:30pm, then left to go home to cook my dinner and left Karen in mum's care, now that night was the 22nd Nov, and it was Adriana's 17th bthday, and Karen was supposed to go out for dinner to celebrate, anyways, Karen left mum for 1hour, and in the space of 1 hour, mum had another fall, she got up from her couch to answer the phone in the kitchen, she tripped over the kitchen chair, and fell on her hands, and backside, lucky she didn't fall on her head, then the care alert button was pressed, not by mum, but the fall did that-on the floor, Karen got a ring tone, and checked her phone, immediately Karen knew it was her care alert button had been pressed, so she flew from her home in a car(not hers), to mum's place, and looked into the kitchen window, realised that the chair was turned on it's side, and when she got into the room, there's mum sitting upstraight in her chair, looking dreary-eyed, confused and slurrying her words, Karen then checked her temperature, and it was 34 degrees, immediately called for the ambo's, and the ambo's took her blood sugar level, it was 3.4, it's low, so they gave her glucose sugar in a tube-2 infact to boost her level's, she didn't like that, so she went into emergency and stayed there until 4pm the next day, got there at 10pm(22nd nov), and stayed in the resussitation unit, so she can be monitored by staff every second, her blood pressure was low, her heart rate was very low, her blood sugar level was low, she became disorientated and confused, and we all seem to think that her chemo medication is the cause, so Karen immediately rang me, so I caught a taxi into emergency and stayed until 3:45am on the 23rd Nov, caught a taxi home, went dutch with Karen, then slept until 12pm, went back into hospital to see mum, and there her blood pressure had risen to normal range, her heart rate back to normal, her blood sugar levels back to normal, then she went into the ward, and there she stayed until today, so now she's missed one dose of her chemo, now next Tuseday, her doctor will determine whether it's the Velcade drug isn't right for her or not, so she may be on another lot and not have Velcade.
my thoughts:
I honestly hope that of all the chemo mum has had, I hope this Velcade wasn't a waste of mum's time, I hope it has helped in some way, even though it's given mum a lashing of side effects, but when she has another CAT scan, hoping that this Velcade has done something to contribute killing the cancer cells, cos if it hasn't, then it would've been a waste of mum's time, lashing her about with side effects that mum doesn't want, and watching mum go thru this, is heartbreaking!
Thanks for reading!
Cheers! :)
my mum's back in hospital, she had 2 falls, 1 fall , she was under my care, at her home, which surprisingly this was not my fault, this was my mum's fault really, she has a habit sleeping right on the edge of her bed, and so mum had a nap, whilst waiting for the RDNS nurse to come and take her bloods before her chemo-it's procedure, so when I eard a knock at the door, I came running to the door and went into mum's room, to wake her up, then I opened the dorr, and heard a loud thump, I went into check and mum had fallen out of bed and hit her head on the side drawers, so I quickly opened the front door to let the nurse in to help my mum up off the floor and onto the bed, so we both did that, sat her on the bed whilst the RDNS takes her blood, then whilst she's doing that, I immediately get some ice and a teatowel, wrap the ice in it, and put it directly onto her left side face/head, so the RDNS nurse left with mum's blood and that was that, so I got mum off the bed and walkied her slowly to the living room, on her couch, and applied the ice pack, stayed with her for an hour, then rang my (brat) sister at work, told her what happened, then I waited for my sister to come after work, that was 5:30pm, then left to go home to cook my dinner and left Karen in mum's care, now that night was the 22nd Nov, and it was Adriana's 17th bthday, and Karen was supposed to go out for dinner to celebrate, anyways, Karen left mum for 1hour, and in the space of 1 hour, mum had another fall, she got up from her couch to answer the phone in the kitchen, she tripped over the kitchen chair, and fell on her hands, and backside, lucky she didn't fall on her head, then the care alert button was pressed, not by mum, but the fall did that-on the floor, Karen got a ring tone, and checked her phone, immediately Karen knew it was her care alert button had been pressed, so she flew from her home in a car(not hers), to mum's place, and looked into the kitchen window, realised that the chair was turned on it's side, and when she got into the room, there's mum sitting upstraight in her chair, looking dreary-eyed, confused and slurrying her words, Karen then checked her temperature, and it was 34 degrees, immediately called for the ambo's, and the ambo's took her blood sugar level, it was 3.4, it's low, so they gave her glucose sugar in a tube-2 infact to boost her level's, she didn't like that, so she went into emergency and stayed there until 4pm the next day, got there at 10pm(22nd nov), and stayed in the resussitation unit, so she can be monitored by staff every second, her blood pressure was low, her heart rate was very low, her blood sugar level was low, she became disorientated and confused, and we all seem to think that her chemo medication is the cause, so Karen immediately rang me, so I caught a taxi into emergency and stayed until 3:45am on the 23rd Nov, caught a taxi home, went dutch with Karen, then slept until 12pm, went back into hospital to see mum, and there her blood pressure had risen to normal range, her heart rate back to normal, her blood sugar levels back to normal, then she went into the ward, and there she stayed until today, so now she's missed one dose of her chemo, now next Tuseday, her doctor will determine whether it's the Velcade drug isn't right for her or not, so she may be on another lot and not have Velcade.
my thoughts:
I honestly hope that of all the chemo mum has had, I hope this Velcade wasn't a waste of mum's time, I hope it has helped in some way, even though it's given mum a lashing of side effects, but when she has another CAT scan, hoping that this Velcade has done something to contribute killing the cancer cells, cos if it hasn't, then it would've been a waste of mum's time, lashing her about with side effects that mum doesn't want, and watching mum go thru this, is heartbreaking!
Thanks for reading!
Cheers! :)
Friday, November 16, 2012
Seasons is beautiful!
Seasons Ep is so beautiful, everything I have ever wanted in this game is in this Ep, I've never gone trick or treating at all in Real Life and now my simmies and I can experience this, and I've never seen snow in RL, so this is as close as to real snow, in my game, I haven't even scratched the surface yet with Seasons Ep, oh, I'm so loving it so much!!! Thanks EA!! :) It is however, slightly buggy, but not all games are perfect anyways, there are tons of games with glitches, games can't be perfect all the time, gotta have some laughs here and there! Now we need University and a proper vacations Ep and my wish is complete.
Happy Simming to all!
Cheers! MidnightPearl xoxo
Happy Simming to all!
Cheers! MidnightPearl xoxo
Tuesday, November 13, 2012
Realism 2
the beauty of sims, we can escape the harsh reality and quite frankly I really don't want the sims to become too realistic, my sims games is an escape to realism, after I have a horrible day in Real Life, playing my sims games have eased my horrible day and turns it around to a pleasent one, that's why I love the Sims 3 game! :)
This abuse has NOW got to stop!!
in another bullying, bitchness fight against me, 5 days ago (8th Nov), I was supposedly to have stolen mums WILL and taken it down to Michael's Mum and Dad, now Michael is my flatmate, helping with me to pay the rent, cos the rent here in Australia, is very high), so I apparently supposedly taken Mum's WILL, to show Michael's Mum and Dad and Michael, well, you work this out, Michael's mum and Dad were at Moonta in South Australia, and it takes 8 hours to get there by car, and I supposedly would've taken Mum's will in the space of an hour before Karen comes over to see mum at 4pm, so if I took the WILL, then I would've still been travelling to Moonta to show this WILL, when in fact I didn't, the WILL, it was sitting on the kitchen bench between the phone and the kettle the entire time, so Karen twisted the situation so far up her arss, made it look like that I had stolen it, rang my brothers,then I got a sms text of hatred back from them, and yet, if Karen open her fuckin eyes in the first place, and found the WILL in front of her, then I wouldn't've got the blame??, and then Karen found it where I left it, but, never got an apology back, then she (karen ) discussed with themselves that I can't be trusted staying at mum's place, so therefore my brother Wayne who works in the door industry, said, we'll just change mum's locks now, so Wendy can't come in as she pleases to help mum out, so that's what they did, so now I can't get into mum's place in an emergency purposes, so now, when I go over there to see my mum, I have to knock on the door and wait for mum to answer it, where the fuck does she get these idea's that I start these fights and arguments when she twists these scenario's so far-it's just beyond belief, now I've been labelled as Mentally incapable to look after my mum, and I abandoned mum, because I had gastro last weekend, thinking of other people, I left mum's place to attend my sickness, and yet I'm classified as a hopeless bitch that abandon's sick and helpless people-I mean, what the fuck????, so am I supposed to attend to mum's illness whilst vomiting and diaaroehing too??? so am I supposed to stay there and share my gastro back to mum???? gee whiz Karen, Karma is so far up your arss right now,and I hope it's a big fat one!
I looked at my supposedly fat arss in the mirror just today, where in the hell, my arsse is fat?, um, Karen you need your eyes tested seriously! LOL!
I have been psychological, emotionally and verbally abused since I was 14 yrs old, and it's still going, I'm now 38yrs old, there was a time in my teenagehood, that my brother wayne,mark and craig, physically abused me, that's when I involved the police, and mum pleaded for me to drop the charges, but on 1 condition, that I never get hit for any reason again, for anything, and my 3 brothers got a fair warning from the police not to hurt me in any way, so I dropped the charges, and to this day, I speak of now, they haven't even tried to hurt me physically, but they've just bullied me verbally and the verbal abuse has not stopped, but this time now I'm an adult and there are reprocussions of being an adult, if I fear that this will esculate into something else, then I won't hestitate to go to the police and have a restraining order for my 3 brothers and karen, they've all got too much to lose if they tread over the line with me, I'm waiting for this to happen, though I can still talk to the police about it anyways, on what I can do to stop this verbal abuse, it's stressing me out and mum of course, but she's too weak at the moment.
I've got the LOVE and MEMORIES, what does Karen have?? the jealousy that mum loves another Daughter, that's why Karen is the way she is towards me, and she's too proud and perfect to admit it-we'll let you live the perfect world Karen, cos ya think you're perfect, think again! only robots have no heart and no love for anyone, and no memories and no feelings and they live in a perfect world, well Karen you've just classified yourself as a robot
I play sims 3 to escape the abuse, Sims 3 makes me happy so much, that I wish I can just click my fingers and join my simmies household, there's no abuse there!
Seriously, all I can say is this, the more Karen.Mark,Wayne and Craig treat me this way, the more they are hurting just 2 people in their lives:
Mum and themselves! Not me! and ya know what?, I really don't care anymore, being blamed for things that doesn't involve me, and yet it's still gonna be my fault if SHIT HATH HIT THE FAN!!!, no matter what happens I still love my mum and she loves me and I love what i do during the day/night 7 days per week, no-one would dare take that from me, because:
I am a survivor, I pick myself up and walk again after been beaten down with verbal abuse, the more I get verbally abused, the more I become stronger in myself, to fight back! my motto is:
Bring it on Bitch!!!!
LOL! :)
Cheers!
MidnightPearl! :)
I looked at my supposedly fat arss in the mirror just today, where in the hell, my arsse is fat?, um, Karen you need your eyes tested seriously! LOL!
I have been psychological, emotionally and verbally abused since I was 14 yrs old, and it's still going, I'm now 38yrs old, there was a time in my teenagehood, that my brother wayne,mark and craig, physically abused me, that's when I involved the police, and mum pleaded for me to drop the charges, but on 1 condition, that I never get hit for any reason again, for anything, and my 3 brothers got a fair warning from the police not to hurt me in any way, so I dropped the charges, and to this day, I speak of now, they haven't even tried to hurt me physically, but they've just bullied me verbally and the verbal abuse has not stopped, but this time now I'm an adult and there are reprocussions of being an adult, if I fear that this will esculate into something else, then I won't hestitate to go to the police and have a restraining order for my 3 brothers and karen, they've all got too much to lose if they tread over the line with me, I'm waiting for this to happen, though I can still talk to the police about it anyways, on what I can do to stop this verbal abuse, it's stressing me out and mum of course, but she's too weak at the moment.
I've got the LOVE and MEMORIES, what does Karen have?? the jealousy that mum loves another Daughter, that's why Karen is the way she is towards me, and she's too proud and perfect to admit it-we'll let you live the perfect world Karen, cos ya think you're perfect, think again! only robots have no heart and no love for anyone, and no memories and no feelings and they live in a perfect world, well Karen you've just classified yourself as a robot
I play sims 3 to escape the abuse, Sims 3 makes me happy so much, that I wish I can just click my fingers and join my simmies household, there's no abuse there!
Seriously, all I can say is this, the more Karen.Mark,Wayne and Craig treat me this way, the more they are hurting just 2 people in their lives:
Mum and themselves! Not me! and ya know what?, I really don't care anymore, being blamed for things that doesn't involve me, and yet it's still gonna be my fault if SHIT HATH HIT THE FAN!!!, no matter what happens I still love my mum and she loves me and I love what i do during the day/night 7 days per week, no-one would dare take that from me, because:
I am a survivor, I pick myself up and walk again after been beaten down with verbal abuse, the more I get verbally abused, the more I become stronger in myself, to fight back! my motto is:
Bring it on Bitch!!!!
LOL! :)
Cheers!
MidnightPearl! :)
Sunday, November 11, 2012
I'm happy and content!!
it doesn't matter what age we all are, just as long as we're happy and content, that's all it matters in this society, people who dwell on stress get nowhere in life, people who are happy and content move on in life and I have moved on and will continue to play my games as long as I shall live!!! xo :)
Sunday, November 04, 2012
On the lighter side of Life......
Seasons Ep is only 10 days away!! just 10(australian time that is!!!!)
OMG!!!!!!! Looking forward to it, sooooo excited, yayhoohoo!!!! Can't wait!!!
If only I can contain my excitement for a few more days, I'll be fine then!
I downloaded the latest patch from EA, which has the new diving board and a few other new patterns in the game added, as well as the ability to swim in any ocean now, so I tried this and I'm the only sim goes into the ocean, I suppose it's just a small taste that EA likes to give us to tease us more for wanting this Expansion pack even more, typical EA, kudo's to you!
The new attraction system is a bit scary indeed, A married female fairy sim got a compliment from a total stranger she just met, (I'd like to get to know you better), something like this quote, woah, that's scary stuff and way too direct I think!.
And the Blueprint mode is something extra, sometimes I don't even feel like building and this tool is so ideal to just plonk a house that you didn't build is just marvelous and brilliant thinking for lazy builders!!
The diving board should've been introduced from base game, not 3yrs later in Seasons Ep, seriously we had to wait for this 3yrs later for this??? sheesh!
MPearl! :)
OMG!!!!!!! Looking forward to it, sooooo excited, yayhoohoo!!!! Can't wait!!!
If only I can contain my excitement for a few more days, I'll be fine then!
I downloaded the latest patch from EA, which has the new diving board and a few other new patterns in the game added, as well as the ability to swim in any ocean now, so I tried this and I'm the only sim goes into the ocean, I suppose it's just a small taste that EA likes to give us to tease us more for wanting this Expansion pack even more, typical EA, kudo's to you!
The new attraction system is a bit scary indeed, A married female fairy sim got a compliment from a total stranger she just met, (I'd like to get to know you better), something like this quote, woah, that's scary stuff and way too direct I think!.
And the Blueprint mode is something extra, sometimes I don't even feel like building and this tool is so ideal to just plonk a house that you didn't build is just marvelous and brilliant thinking for lazy builders!!
The diving board should've been introduced from base game, not 3yrs later in Seasons Ep, seriously we had to wait for this 3yrs later for this??? sheesh!
MPearl! :)
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